That pause seemed to stretch out forever. Thaddeus did not mind; Alfarinn was still here, still close, and as far as he was concerned that was the only thing that really mattered.
He wondered at the other man's composure, always so calm, radiating that deep sense of peace. It was grounding in a way, much like the Evenhet's cool touch on burning skin. That perfect tranquility kept him present and safe with the knowledge that while he was completely defenseless in Alfarinn's hands, his defenses were entirely uneccessary for the moment, and it was somewhat of a reprieve to leave them behind.
"Of course."Â?
He had time to sigh in sweet relief that he was understood, to reflect on how this man could render him amazed simply by speaking those words and smiling so gently at him before Alfarinn proceeded to reinvent the concept of amazing. He let out a sound that was half whimper, half gasp, and then Alfarinn's mouth wrapped around him and it was a long moment before he was aware of anything more than that warm wet smoothness, lips gliding over him, making him shiver, tongue moving against him and making him moan.
He did, eventually, return at least a little to his senses. At some point his hand had gripped Alfarinn's shoulder tightly, and he relinquished that hold because the other man already understood his unspoken desire to be taken gently. Instead, he moved that hand to slide carefully into that long hair, lightly running it through his fingers as the other man moved against him. The gesture was meant to be affectionate rather than insistent, though he had to wonder who was more reassured by the act. He had no wish to rush this, and in fact found the idea quite impossible in any case. His other hand was occupied with bracing him up against the shower wall, though Thaddeus was again unsure of when exactly he had put it there. His knees, he found, were no longer quite sufficient to keep him standing, so it was probably a good thing his hand had reached out of its own accord. He tilted his head back against the wall and felt the cool tile on his cheek, lost in the pleasures of this intimacy, whispering so softly he was not certain he spoke at all. It probably didn't matter; he was simply saying Alfarinn's name.
Whatever will we do?
Alfarinn set down the bags just to the side of the entrance, barely having time to scoop them up before Thaddeus pulled him towards the apartment. He still had not been able to erase the grin from his face at his companion's haste. Feeling an equal excitement at the thought of finally have a few moments of privacy with the Anantya.
Now that they were out of the public eye once more, He leaned against the door and regarded his companion with a smirk.
"So here we are two people, alone in an apartment, at night, eternally in the prime of our lives... hmm He paused, hand rubbing his chin thoughtfully, eyes glinting with mischief.
"How about a nice game of chess?"
Thaddeus Grey
18 years ago
Alfarinn
18 years ago
Alfarinn smiled inwardly at the sounds from his companion. While the vocal encouragement wasn't necessary for him to know what was most pleasing, they still made him happy to hear them. Actually, happy was an inadequate word to describe the effect Thaddeus's moans had on him.
Delighted, inspired, affectionate and just plain aroused were words that came closer to conveying what each little whimper and sharp intake of breath did to him.
He was still continuing his teasing exploration of the blonde when he felt the hand grip his shoulder tightly. Alfarinn slowed down further, merely running his tongue along the crown and under the ridge teasing more than fulfilling.
Eventually the hand was taken away and moved to his hair and Alfarinn shivered once from that delicate caress. Going back to focusing on his own movements, he put one hand around the base, moving it in time with his mouth and the other hand reached up to gently cup the companions of Thaddeus's most sensitive appendage, stroking lightly with his thumb.
He would continue slowly until there was insistence for him to speed up, pleasing Thaddeus was quite enjoyable as he knew it would be and Alfarinn was in no hurry for it to end.
Delighted, inspired, affectionate and just plain aroused were words that came closer to conveying what each little whimper and sharp intake of breath did to him.
He was still continuing his teasing exploration of the blonde when he felt the hand grip his shoulder tightly. Alfarinn slowed down further, merely running his tongue along the crown and under the ridge teasing more than fulfilling.
Eventually the hand was taken away and moved to his hair and Alfarinn shivered once from that delicate caress. Going back to focusing on his own movements, he put one hand around the base, moving it in time with his mouth and the other hand reached up to gently cup the companions of Thaddeus's most sensitive appendage, stroking lightly with his thumb.
He would continue slowly until there was insistence for him to speed up, pleasing Thaddeus was quite enjoyable as he knew it would be and Alfarinn was in no hurry for it to end.
Thaddeus Grey
18 years ago
When deft hands joined Alfarinn's mouth Thaddeus was convinced he would fall. It took him a moment to realize he was still standing, in fact, that the feeling of vertigo that threatened to overwhelm him was not the result of calmly stepping off a cliff. His feet were underneath him, his knees were still supporting him, however precariously, and while his hand scrambled for purchase on the slippery tile once or twice, he seemed to be holding to balance for the moment.
He was not entirely sure which inevitability would occur first, though he knew which one he hoped for.
With his free hand he continued to stroke Alfarinn's hair, sliding through it, securing it behind his ear and allowing his fingers to trace along the delicate skin there. Touching Alfarinn gently this way only heightened the pleasure that washed over him with nearly overwhelming intensity. Combined with that pleasure was an increasing need that coursed through every part of him, growing stronger with each long, slow stroke, an aching desire to move and push and beg under those hands and that mouth. Even so, he kept reasonably still save his hand, which curled around Alfarinn's neck to run along the little hairs at the back, though he could not keep himself from arching into that touch just a bit.
He was both too far gone and too close for words now, or at least beyond hearing them for himself if he did manage to utter anything coherent, and his eyes shut out everything but the sensations that were slowly pushing him over the edge.
He was not entirely sure which inevitability would occur first, though he knew which one he hoped for.
With his free hand he continued to stroke Alfarinn's hair, sliding through it, securing it behind his ear and allowing his fingers to trace along the delicate skin there. Touching Alfarinn gently this way only heightened the pleasure that washed over him with nearly overwhelming intensity. Combined with that pleasure was an increasing need that coursed through every part of him, growing stronger with each long, slow stroke, an aching desire to move and push and beg under those hands and that mouth. Even so, he kept reasonably still save his hand, which curled around Alfarinn's neck to run along the little hairs at the back, though he could not keep himself from arching into that touch just a bit.
He was both too far gone and too close for words now, or at least beyond hearing them for himself if he did manage to utter anything coherent, and his eyes shut out everything but the sensations that were slowly pushing him over the edge.
Alfarinn
18 years ago
Alfarinn began to move more with more assertiveness, quickening the pace of his movements. He had ceased the teasing, though he would return to his former rhythm if Thaddeus became uncomfortable. It seemed to him though that the Anantya had finally given up on his reticence and personal restraint, at least for the time being.
He knew he'd live for these stolen moments of privacy with Thaddeus, not for the sake of physical pleasure, though that was nice in itself, but for the times he was able to see the blonde unbound by the restrictions he placed upon himself in public. To know that he was trusted to see the most secret parts of his companion's mind and heart filled him with humble amazement. It was a gift that he could not have dreamed of being given when he received that neatly written letter requesting his presence at the museum.
A very small selfish part of Alfarinn could hope that one day the Anantya might not shy away from touching him in even the smallest gesture of affection while they were with other people but at the same time a part of him would jealously guard that propriety that made Thaddeus who he was. He would never push him to be anything else despite the incredible longing to touch the blonde any time they were in the same room.
That touch that was so satisfying at this very moment, his lips sliding over his companion, pushing down as far he could go and back again, feeling Thaddeus move and arch underneath him, sensing his pleasure and desire, that increasing need that was almost becoming a physical pain. It washed over him and made him shudder in delight just as much as the hand that was gently pushing through his hair.
His own hands continued to stroke gently. He relished the feel of the smooth skin under his cool fingers and the firm warmth in his mouth. Alfarinn enjoyed every tiny movement and sound of his companion and was pleased beyond measure that Thaddeus had chosen to share himself with him.
He knew he'd live for these stolen moments of privacy with Thaddeus, not for the sake of physical pleasure, though that was nice in itself, but for the times he was able to see the blonde unbound by the restrictions he placed upon himself in public. To know that he was trusted to see the most secret parts of his companion's mind and heart filled him with humble amazement. It was a gift that he could not have dreamed of being given when he received that neatly written letter requesting his presence at the museum.
A very small selfish part of Alfarinn could hope that one day the Anantya might not shy away from touching him in even the smallest gesture of affection while they were with other people but at the same time a part of him would jealously guard that propriety that made Thaddeus who he was. He would never push him to be anything else despite the incredible longing to touch the blonde any time they were in the same room.
That touch that was so satisfying at this very moment, his lips sliding over his companion, pushing down as far he could go and back again, feeling Thaddeus move and arch underneath him, sensing his pleasure and desire, that increasing need that was almost becoming a physical pain. It washed over him and made him shudder in delight just as much as the hand that was gently pushing through his hair.
His own hands continued to stroke gently. He relished the feel of the smooth skin under his cool fingers and the firm warmth in his mouth. Alfarinn enjoyed every tiny movement and sound of his companion and was pleased beyond measure that Thaddeus had chosen to share himself with him.
Thaddeus Grey
18 years ago
He had been certain there could be no greater pleasure than this without crashing over the edge, and Alfarinn proved him wrong with each movement, the increased pressure and pace bringing him impossibly close to the ecstasy that hovered so near.
It was opening his eyes that proved to be his undoing.
His grip on the wall had, by this point, become completely useless, and he had moved his hand to take hold of Alfarinn's shoulder, hoping to keep some semblance of balance. He realized, though, that Alfarinn might stop, might think something was wrong, and that certainly wasn't an impression he wanted to give because this couldn't possibly be further from being wrong, and he should tell him, that, should explain. And so he somehow managed to open his eyes, to find his voice, only by then it was far too late for explanations, and anyway the hand on Alfarinn's shoulder didn't seem to be deterring the other man at all.
That hazy image of Alfarinn's mouth around him, long slender fingers stroking him, blonde hair falling like a curtain around them, took all the words from him in any case.
All, that is, save one.
Alfarinn...
And then the world went explosively white as rapture overtook him.
It was opening his eyes that proved to be his undoing.
His grip on the wall had, by this point, become completely useless, and he had moved his hand to take hold of Alfarinn's shoulder, hoping to keep some semblance of balance. He realized, though, that Alfarinn might stop, might think something was wrong, and that certainly wasn't an impression he wanted to give because this couldn't possibly be further from being wrong, and he should tell him, that, should explain. And so he somehow managed to open his eyes, to find his voice, only by then it was far too late for explanations, and anyway the hand on Alfarinn's shoulder didn't seem to be deterring the other man at all.
That hazy image of Alfarinn's mouth around him, long slender fingers stroking him, blonde hair falling like a curtain around them, took all the words from him in any case.
All, that is, save one.
Alfarinn...
And then the world went explosively white as rapture overtook him.
Alfarinn
18 years ago
Alfarinn continued to suck gently on his companion in those final moments after the dam had burst and the tidal wave of sensation over threw the senses. He removed his hands and placed them once more on Thaddeus's hips in order to help hold him up, leaving it once less worry to concentrate on. Smiling inwardly at that sound of his name, spoken so softly and with such emotion, Alfarinn then closed his eyes and let the bliss of Thaddeus's release wash over his own senses, enjoying it nearly as much the blonde himself.
Eventually he carefully removed his lips and kissed Thaddeus once on the chest as he rose to his feet. He still held on to the Anantya and now brought him slowly off the hard tile wall and into the circle of his arms. Running a hand lightly up Thaddeus's back, Alfarinn embraced him tightly but tenderly with the other arm. He enjoyed having the man's warm weight back against his own and simply stood quiet for a few moments, the running water the only sound in the room.
With a content sigh, Alfarinn leaned down and whispered close to the Anantya's ear. What he wanted to say was 'thank you' though that might seem odd under the circumstances, He understood it. Thank you for your trust, thank you for your love...thank you. But Thaddeus might not understand and so he simply asked.
"Was that a good beginning?
Eventually he carefully removed his lips and kissed Thaddeus once on the chest as he rose to his feet. He still held on to the Anantya and now brought him slowly off the hard tile wall and into the circle of his arms. Running a hand lightly up Thaddeus's back, Alfarinn embraced him tightly but tenderly with the other arm. He enjoyed having the man's warm weight back against his own and simply stood quiet for a few moments, the running water the only sound in the room.
With a content sigh, Alfarinn leaned down and whispered close to the Anantya's ear. What he wanted to say was 'thank you' though that might seem odd under the circumstances, He understood it. Thank you for your trust, thank you for your love...thank you. But Thaddeus might not understand and so he simply asked.
"Was that a good beginning?
Thaddeus Grey
18 years ago
Alfarinn caught him before he fell, as he had known, in the back of his mind, he would. Caught him and held him and tenderly moved against him as that ultimate pleasure coursed through him. He sighed in contentment when Alfarinn put his arms around him, pulling him away from the wall and holding him close. He rested his head against the other man's shoulder, one arm around his waist and the other hand resting lightly on his chest.
Being held in this most vulnerable of moments was, for Thaddeus, a greater reassurance, a more completing experience, than he could have imagined. That soothing calm security was deeply fulfilling to him, and he was grateful that Alfarinn had once again understood what he needed.
He considered trying to explain what he had meant by his earlier comment when Alfarinn inquired, but making sense of that sensation of falling deeper and deeper, newly surprised by each discovery, freshly amazed by the heights Alfarinn could take him to, was a bit beyond his current verbal abilities. He fleetingly thought, perhaps, it could be expressed with poetry or some such, but even in the best of times Thaddeus was not what anyone would call a poet. Somewhat drained from the whole experience, he did not lift his head when he spoke, though he was dimly aware that Alfarinn whispering in his ear still sent shivers up his spine.
You are absolutely remarkable.
Even now, being in such close proximity to Alfarinn, renewed desire was beginning to flood through him; a longing to please this man, to make him feel the same pleasure he had just been gifted with. Gratitude and affection and passion were building to take the place of the quiet calm, and so, shaking off the last of that sweet weariness, he lifted his head and reached up both hands to the other man's face, tracing his fingertips along Alfarinn's cheekbones and down his jaw line as he spoke.
Shall we take this to the bedroom?
Being held in this most vulnerable of moments was, for Thaddeus, a greater reassurance, a more completing experience, than he could have imagined. That soothing calm security was deeply fulfilling to him, and he was grateful that Alfarinn had once again understood what he needed.
He considered trying to explain what he had meant by his earlier comment when Alfarinn inquired, but making sense of that sensation of falling deeper and deeper, newly surprised by each discovery, freshly amazed by the heights Alfarinn could take him to, was a bit beyond his current verbal abilities. He fleetingly thought, perhaps, it could be expressed with poetry or some such, but even in the best of times Thaddeus was not what anyone would call a poet. Somewhat drained from the whole experience, he did not lift his head when he spoke, though he was dimly aware that Alfarinn whispering in his ear still sent shivers up his spine.
You are absolutely remarkable.
Even now, being in such close proximity to Alfarinn, renewed desire was beginning to flood through him; a longing to please this man, to make him feel the same pleasure he had just been gifted with. Gratitude and affection and passion were building to take the place of the quiet calm, and so, shaking off the last of that sweet weariness, he lifted his head and reached up both hands to the other man's face, tracing his fingertips along Alfarinn's cheekbones and down his jaw line as he spoke.
Shall we take this to the bedroom?
Alfarinn
18 years ago
Alfarinn smiled and looked down at his companion. Bemused by the sentiment but glad that Thaddeus felt it was so. He was not certain what he'd done that would merit the comment, to him, his part had been easy. It was Thaddeus that was remarkable, with his capacity to trust and let go of himself in Alfarinn's presence. So much had happened to the blonde that leaned against him in just the small part of his life that Alfarinn knew about to make such trust difficult and such openness refreshing. Thaddeus was not broken by Emma's death, Alfarinn never for a moment believed he had been but proof was in the Anantya's ability to care for someone again. So many times people hide from those feelings, walled it away to make sure that they can no longer be hurt. He had done so himself for a very long while and knew all it did was leave you alone with the pain, allowing it to grow and take root inside you.
Alfarinn shook his head slowly.
"I would disagree but I'm not currently interested in debating." He kissed Thaddeus gently, the smile still tugging at the corner of his lips. Whispering in his ear, he said. " You make the most wonderful sounds, they seem to find the very heart of me." Alfarinn sighed contentedly and covered the hand on his chest with his own.
In answer to Thaddeus's question, He leaned down,still holding his companion around the waist and turned off the water.
"I think I can be persuaded."
Alfarinn shook his head slowly.
"I would disagree but I'm not currently interested in debating." He kissed Thaddeus gently, the smile still tugging at the corner of his lips. Whispering in his ear, he said. " You make the most wonderful sounds, they seem to find the very heart of me." Alfarinn sighed contentedly and covered the hand on his chest with his own.
In answer to Thaddeus's question, He leaned down,still holding his companion around the waist and turned off the water.
"I think I can be persuaded."
Thaddeus Grey
18 years ago
Thaddeus tilted his head and smiled, then silently stepped out of the shower, leading Alfarinn by the hand, and took two towels off the linen shelf. Ignoring the sudden cold, he wrapped one towel around his waist and used the other to carefully wring the water out of his companion's hair, kissing along his neck and shoulders as he did. Only then did he dry his own damp hair, letting it fall in a messy disarray before raking his fingers through it once to keep the short strands from falling on his face.
I suppose I shall have to prove it to you then.
Does he see how one kiss can make me tremble, how whispering in my ear would bring me to my knees if not for his arms around me? How one smile disarms me, how one comment strips me of my defenses? How can he not know how incredible he is?
Thaddeus was quite confident that this was one debate he would win through sheer accuracy. How this man could be so calm and confident one moment and so self depreciating the next was beyond him, and he decided he would simply have to leave Alfarinn with no room for doubt.
Deciding they were as dry as could be expected, Thaddeus hung the towels on the rack, inwardly marveling at the simple fact that his towel hung next to Alfarinn's, that their clothing was scattered together on the bathroom floor. This was another sort of intimacy, Thaddeus thought, not unlike Alfarinn being perfectly comfortable telling him the effect those little sounds had on him. It would have embarrassed the life out of him had anyone else mentioned such a thing, but with Alfarinn, he simply felt pleased that the other man did not mind.
He turned once again, taking his hand, but instead of leading him quietly out of the bathroom and into the bed, he ran one thumb across the other man's fingers before bringing the hand to his lips, kissing softly and never taking his eyes away from Alfarinn.
It is a good thing, then, that I can be very persuasive.
He let the corners of his mouth turn to the smile that wanted to form.
I suppose I shall have to prove it to you then.
Does he see how one kiss can make me tremble, how whispering in my ear would bring me to my knees if not for his arms around me? How one smile disarms me, how one comment strips me of my defenses? How can he not know how incredible he is?
Thaddeus was quite confident that this was one debate he would win through sheer accuracy. How this man could be so calm and confident one moment and so self depreciating the next was beyond him, and he decided he would simply have to leave Alfarinn with no room for doubt.
Deciding they were as dry as could be expected, Thaddeus hung the towels on the rack, inwardly marveling at the simple fact that his towel hung next to Alfarinn's, that their clothing was scattered together on the bathroom floor. This was another sort of intimacy, Thaddeus thought, not unlike Alfarinn being perfectly comfortable telling him the effect those little sounds had on him. It would have embarrassed the life out of him had anyone else mentioned such a thing, but with Alfarinn, he simply felt pleased that the other man did not mind.
He turned once again, taking his hand, but instead of leading him quietly out of the bathroom and into the bed, he ran one thumb across the other man's fingers before bringing the hand to his lips, kissing softly and never taking his eyes away from Alfarinn.
It is a good thing, then, that I can be very persuasive.
He let the corners of his mouth turn to the smile that wanted to form.
Alfarinn
18 years ago
Alfarinn arched an eyebrow at Thaddeus but made no comment about his plans to prove his point. He had mentioned not wanting to debate and while he doubted that is what the Anantya had in mind, Alfarinn wasn't going to deny the point a second time. Too much disagreeing becomes a cry for someone to prove you wrong,looking very much like false modesty. He wasn't too the point where he needed someone to help him prove his self worth, he felt that plenty on his own. Alfarinn just wasn't certain of his value to his companion.
In answer to the blonde's other statement, he replied.
"Of that I have little doubt." Alfarinn smiled and followed Thaddeus into the bedroom. And just as quickly Thaddeus was back to being confident and self assured once more. He was amazed at the man's ability to adapt so well to each new moment. Yet, he didn't see his companion having any problems ever losing his sense of self, Thaddeus was always Thaddeus and Alfarinn couldn't help but find that truly remarkable.
"You've already seduced me, Mr.Grey" Alfarinn smiled faintly at that. It was true enough, he was completely taken in by the man in front of him in a way that hadn't happened in ages. "But you're more than welcome to keep doing it. I promise not to mind at all."
Standing in front of the bed, he pulled Thaddeus close enough to lean against him briefly. Running his lips slowly up that warm graceful neck, Alfarinn kissed his companion just behind his ear and murmured.
"Is there somewhere in particular you want me?"
In answer to the blonde's other statement, he replied.
"Of that I have little doubt." Alfarinn smiled and followed Thaddeus into the bedroom. And just as quickly Thaddeus was back to being confident and self assured once more. He was amazed at the man's ability to adapt so well to each new moment. Yet, he didn't see his companion having any problems ever losing his sense of self, Thaddeus was always Thaddeus and Alfarinn couldn't help but find that truly remarkable.
"You've already seduced me, Mr.Grey" Alfarinn smiled faintly at that. It was true enough, he was completely taken in by the man in front of him in a way that hadn't happened in ages. "But you're more than welcome to keep doing it. I promise not to mind at all."
Standing in front of the bed, he pulled Thaddeus close enough to lean against him briefly. Running his lips slowly up that warm graceful neck, Alfarinn kissed his companion just behind his ear and murmured.
"Is there somewhere in particular you want me?"
Thaddeus Grey
18 years ago
Thaddeus decided that the debate of who, exactly, had seduced who was a matter best left for another time. After all, he reasoned, Alfarinn certainly could have had him in his bed in more ways than one that first night. The other man's patience with Thaddeus was one of his more attractive qualities, and certainly did not make him any -less- enticing.
And Alfarinn's mouth running over Thaddeus's neck certainly did not detract from his suspicions that he was just as susceptible to Alfarinn's charms as the other man was to his.
The Evenhet's question, though, gave him pause. While Thaddeus would not say he lacked imagination, quite the contrary in fact, he found he was caught in a moment of uncertainty. Several suggestions, ranging from suggestive to outright gratuitous, flickered through his mind, but he smiled softly and climbed onto the bed, pulling Alfarinn after him and sliding back to the pillows so they lay side by side.
On the bed, for a beginning anyway.
Thaddeus allowed himself the fleeting thought that other furniture could certainly be put to use later before pulling Alfarinn down for a kiss. He discovered he rather liked kissing the other man this way, with their difference in height no longer a factor, and so he deepened that kiss, wrapping one leg around Alfarinn and pulling him closer with his arms wrapped securely around him.
And Alfarinn's mouth running over Thaddeus's neck certainly did not detract from his suspicions that he was just as susceptible to Alfarinn's charms as the other man was to his.
The Evenhet's question, though, gave him pause. While Thaddeus would not say he lacked imagination, quite the contrary in fact, he found he was caught in a moment of uncertainty. Several suggestions, ranging from suggestive to outright gratuitous, flickered through his mind, but he smiled softly and climbed onto the bed, pulling Alfarinn after him and sliding back to the pillows so they lay side by side.
On the bed, for a beginning anyway.
Thaddeus allowed himself the fleeting thought that other furniture could certainly be put to use later before pulling Alfarinn down for a kiss. He discovered he rather liked kissing the other man this way, with their difference in height no longer a factor, and so he deepened that kiss, wrapping one leg around Alfarinn and pulling him closer with his arms wrapped securely around him.
Alfarinn
18 years ago
"Ah, and what shall we be beginning this time?" Alfarinn feigned innocence though his grin gave him completely away.
He followed Thaddeus on to the bed and laid down beside the Anantya. He was curious about where his companion was going to take this, just how he planned on proceeding. Being with Thaddeus this way reminded him of how briefly they had known each other. Alfarinn was not yet aware of all of his companion's preferences and each new discovery was something that he locked away in his mind for future reference, just as Thaddeus's reaction to being kissed on the neck had been discovered, or the still surprising fact that his hair seemed to have such an effect on the blonde, or that hearing Thaddeus moan and gasp made him crumble, weak in the knees with desire and overwhelmed with affection.
Alfarinn was pulled out of his reverie by Thaddeus bringing him close. He lost all thought in that embrace and returned it with equal fervor, bringing up one hand to glide along his companion's neck and gently pull him closer, if such a thing were possible. He murmured his appreciation between kisses in a wordless sound that asked for more, his hand trailing down the Anantya's side, so warm and inviting leaned up against his own. Alfarinn's hand reached the leg wrapped around him and squeezed gently before sliding back up to a firm smooth cheek, He pressed the blonde closer to him with a pleased sigh.
Leaning back, Alfarinn found himself mesmerized by those grey eyes watching him and tenderly ran a hand along Thaddeus's jaw before reaching up to push back a few short strands of hair that fallen in disarray.
"You know its equally appealing tousled." He couldn't help but grin as he added. "Perhaps even more so."
He followed Thaddeus on to the bed and laid down beside the Anantya. He was curious about where his companion was going to take this, just how he planned on proceeding. Being with Thaddeus this way reminded him of how briefly they had known each other. Alfarinn was not yet aware of all of his companion's preferences and each new discovery was something that he locked away in his mind for future reference, just as Thaddeus's reaction to being kissed on the neck had been discovered, or the still surprising fact that his hair seemed to have such an effect on the blonde, or that hearing Thaddeus moan and gasp made him crumble, weak in the knees with desire and overwhelmed with affection.
Alfarinn was pulled out of his reverie by Thaddeus bringing him close. He lost all thought in that embrace and returned it with equal fervor, bringing up one hand to glide along his companion's neck and gently pull him closer, if such a thing were possible. He murmured his appreciation between kisses in a wordless sound that asked for more, his hand trailing down the Anantya's side, so warm and inviting leaned up against his own. Alfarinn's hand reached the leg wrapped around him and squeezed gently before sliding back up to a firm smooth cheek, He pressed the blonde closer to him with a pleased sigh.
Leaning back, Alfarinn found himself mesmerized by those grey eyes watching him and tenderly ran a hand along Thaddeus's jaw before reaching up to push back a few short strands of hair that fallen in disarray.
"You know its equally appealing tousled." He couldn't help but grin as he added. "Perhaps even more so."
Thaddeus Grey
18 years ago
Thaddeus self consciously pushed his hair back away from his face before he realized what he was doing, then gave Alfarinn a somewhat sheepish grin.
What can I say? I am blessed.
The statement came out with less bravado and more questioning than he had intended. Though, he supposed, there was a soundless query, silently asking 'do you want me' and 'will you take me' with every kiss and touch, and as they deepened that kiss, both trying with near desperation to get closer, Thaddeus thought he could hear the answer. Every touch, every movement to bring him close, seemed to say 'yes' and 'more' and those little murmurs were enough to make him ache with the joy and the desire of it all.
And then Alfarinn was pulling away, just a little, enough to get a hand between them and touch him affectionately and meet his eyes.
He realized, after a moment, that he had not moved, that while part of him was caught in hesitation another part of him was memorizing every detail of Alfarinn's face, drinking in that image with his eyes. The curve of his chin and the shape of his cheekbones, the strand of hair that fell down over his face that Thaddeus both wanted to push back and wanted to leave still. And he was suddenly newly aware of just how close they were, legs tangled and shoulders touching and near enough to kiss, but they weren't kissing just then, because Thaddeus had not moved.
He leaned forward, because even if he knew he should speak at least taking some sort of action was better than being frozen in place, and kissed Alfarinn gently, along his cheekbones, his eyelids, the line of his jaw, his lips, tracing his path lightly with his fingertips, letting them lead the way. He moved to the other man's neck, kissing more firmly now, but keeping his touches light, gliding his fingertips down the length of that smooth back, drinking in the texture and curve of Alfarinn's skin, over one hip and down his thigh before pressing his palm flat against skin and moving his hand back up, retracing his path to the small of his companion's back. He moved his lips up to Alfarinn's ear, tugging lightly on the lobe with his teeth, and somehow found his voice. He may not have been entirely sure of what he would say, but saying -something- was becoming quite important, he felt, and so he gave his questions voice, whispering in the other man's ear between soft kisses.
Do you want me? Will you take me?
What can I say? I am blessed.
The statement came out with less bravado and more questioning than he had intended. Though, he supposed, there was a soundless query, silently asking 'do you want me' and 'will you take me' with every kiss and touch, and as they deepened that kiss, both trying with near desperation to get closer, Thaddeus thought he could hear the answer. Every touch, every movement to bring him close, seemed to say 'yes' and 'more' and those little murmurs were enough to make him ache with the joy and the desire of it all.
And then Alfarinn was pulling away, just a little, enough to get a hand between them and touch him affectionately and meet his eyes.
He realized, after a moment, that he had not moved, that while part of him was caught in hesitation another part of him was memorizing every detail of Alfarinn's face, drinking in that image with his eyes. The curve of his chin and the shape of his cheekbones, the strand of hair that fell down over his face that Thaddeus both wanted to push back and wanted to leave still. And he was suddenly newly aware of just how close they were, legs tangled and shoulders touching and near enough to kiss, but they weren't kissing just then, because Thaddeus had not moved.
He leaned forward, because even if he knew he should speak at least taking some sort of action was better than being frozen in place, and kissed Alfarinn gently, along his cheekbones, his eyelids, the line of his jaw, his lips, tracing his path lightly with his fingertips, letting them lead the way. He moved to the other man's neck, kissing more firmly now, but keeping his touches light, gliding his fingertips down the length of that smooth back, drinking in the texture and curve of Alfarinn's skin, over one hip and down his thigh before pressing his palm flat against skin and moving his hand back up, retracing his path to the small of his companion's back. He moved his lips up to Alfarinn's ear, tugging lightly on the lobe with his teeth, and somehow found his voice. He may not have been entirely sure of what he would say, but saying -something- was becoming quite important, he felt, and so he gave his questions voice, whispering in the other man's ear between soft kisses.
Do you want me? Will you take me?
Alfarinn
18 years ago
Alfarinn smiled at the small egotistical statement which was totally undercut by the uncertain manner in which it was delivered. He'd normally have said that he was the one blessed, getting to look at Thaddeus so often but he was stopped short by the real uncertainty that he sensed in his companion. Joking would not help nearly as much as just being honest and letting his desire for his companion come through his words and actions.
He sighed content under Thaddeus's gentle caresses, his thoughts lost for the moment as he enjoyed those delicate touches. Once the blissful distraction of Thaddeus's kisses paused for a moment, Alfarinn promised himself he'd assure his companion of just how much he meant to him.
When the blonde reached his ear, Alfarinn moaned softly and pressed himself more fully up against him. The quiet questions though caused him to pause and look at his companion.
"Thaddeus..." How could he have any doubts? Had he failed to show his affection adequately? Alfarinn felt a stab of pain at the need those queries conveyed. He wondered just what kind of experiences had made such an extraordinary person like the man in front of him question his worth as someone to be loved but he resolved to do his best to continue removing all doubt at every opportunity.
Pulling the Anantya to him, Alfarinn kissed him with all the passion he could muster, clinging tightly to him while his lips explored the ones beneath his own, willing his desire to be understood. He rolled them both over on the bed so that he came to rest on top of Thaddeus, pushing up to rest part of his weight on one arm, he ran the other down his companion's chest.
Hoping that he could make himself plain, he said " How could I not want you? Do you not know what you do to me? Its difficult to not touch you whenever I'm near you." Alfarinn brought the hand to gently cup Thaddeus's cheek, stroking a thumb over the lips he had just kissed. " If you're ready then there is nothing I'd like better at this moment."
He smiled somewhat awkwardly and tucked a strand of hair behind his ear. " I refuse to hurt you though..."
Alfarinn left off the question that needed to be asked, suddenly for some reason shy about this experience that he had done so many times. Watching his very proper companion he thought how do you ask how much thought he'd given this?
"If there isn't.." Oh just say it, You'd think you weren't 100 years old the way you're blushing, He'll understand. "I didn't bring anything with me. I should have thought of this. You wouldn't have been more prepared?"
He sighed content under Thaddeus's gentle caresses, his thoughts lost for the moment as he enjoyed those delicate touches. Once the blissful distraction of Thaddeus's kisses paused for a moment, Alfarinn promised himself he'd assure his companion of just how much he meant to him.
When the blonde reached his ear, Alfarinn moaned softly and pressed himself more fully up against him. The quiet questions though caused him to pause and look at his companion.
"Thaddeus..." How could he have any doubts? Had he failed to show his affection adequately? Alfarinn felt a stab of pain at the need those queries conveyed. He wondered just what kind of experiences had made such an extraordinary person like the man in front of him question his worth as someone to be loved but he resolved to do his best to continue removing all doubt at every opportunity.
Pulling the Anantya to him, Alfarinn kissed him with all the passion he could muster, clinging tightly to him while his lips explored the ones beneath his own, willing his desire to be understood. He rolled them both over on the bed so that he came to rest on top of Thaddeus, pushing up to rest part of his weight on one arm, he ran the other down his companion's chest.
Hoping that he could make himself plain, he said " How could I not want you? Do you not know what you do to me? Its difficult to not touch you whenever I'm near you." Alfarinn brought the hand to gently cup Thaddeus's cheek, stroking a thumb over the lips he had just kissed. " If you're ready then there is nothing I'd like better at this moment."
He smiled somewhat awkwardly and tucked a strand of hair behind his ear. " I refuse to hurt you though..."
Alfarinn left off the question that needed to be asked, suddenly for some reason shy about this experience that he had done so many times. Watching his very proper companion he thought how do you ask how much thought he'd given this?
"If there isn't.." Oh just say it, You'd think you weren't 100 years old the way you're blushing, He'll understand. "I didn't bring anything with me. I should have thought of this. You wouldn't have been more prepared?"
Thaddeus Grey
18 years ago
Thaddeus tilted his head to one side, regarding his companion with affectionate curiosity.
You won't hurt me.
Thaddeus was used to being the one to say no, for whatever reason. He was adept at pushing away, at shutting down and locking out. Pulling closer, being the less restrained of the two, going beyond simply saying yes to actually being the instigator...gave him a sense of uncertainty. Alfarinn seemed to wear his calm like armor, and Thaddeus wondered if he was, perhaps, untouchable beyond it. Most men in Alfarinn's situation, Thaddeus believed, would not have asked, or waited, and the fact that the other man was so willing to be patient was beginning to make him apprehensive. That Thaddeus was so willing and even now Alfarinn seemed to hold back at every turn was concerning.
Now, though, with Alfarinn's comforting weight on top of him, a curtain of hair around them, thumb running over his thoroughly kissed mouth, he realized that it wasn't a matter of desire as he had privately feared.
Was hurting him all Alfarinn was worried about? The thought was touching. There would be time to prove Thaddeus was not as...fragile as his slight build would indicate, but for the moment he could not help but think that it was rather pleasant to be treated with such care.
And was he -blushing-? Thaddeus could not help but smile at that.
"Never let it be said,"Â? Thaddeus spoke as he reached out and opened the nightstand drawer, "that I am not optimistic. Or presumptuous. Or audacious."Â?
And now I'm blushing.
But Thaddeus kept his smile as he brought out the lube and set it on the bed, arching up for another kiss before letting his expression turn serious.
You won't hurt me. And you can touch me any time you would like.
You won't hurt me.
Thaddeus was used to being the one to say no, for whatever reason. He was adept at pushing away, at shutting down and locking out. Pulling closer, being the less restrained of the two, going beyond simply saying yes to actually being the instigator...gave him a sense of uncertainty. Alfarinn seemed to wear his calm like armor, and Thaddeus wondered if he was, perhaps, untouchable beyond it. Most men in Alfarinn's situation, Thaddeus believed, would not have asked, or waited, and the fact that the other man was so willing to be patient was beginning to make him apprehensive. That Thaddeus was so willing and even now Alfarinn seemed to hold back at every turn was concerning.
Now, though, with Alfarinn's comforting weight on top of him, a curtain of hair around them, thumb running over his thoroughly kissed mouth, he realized that it wasn't a matter of desire as he had privately feared.
Was hurting him all Alfarinn was worried about? The thought was touching. There would be time to prove Thaddeus was not as...fragile as his slight build would indicate, but for the moment he could not help but think that it was rather pleasant to be treated with such care.
And was he -blushing-? Thaddeus could not help but smile at that.
"Never let it be said,"Â? Thaddeus spoke as he reached out and opened the nightstand drawer, "that I am not optimistic. Or presumptuous. Or audacious."Â?
And now I'm blushing.
But Thaddeus kept his smile as he brought out the lube and set it on the bed, arching up for another kiss before letting his expression turn serious.
You won't hurt me. And you can touch me any time you would like.
Alfarinn
18 years ago
Alfarinn was relieved to find that Thaddeus had been prepared after all. He smiled down at his companion, placing both hands on either side of him and resting on his hands and knees. Alfarinn leaned down to kiss Thaddeus once more, pausing to enjoy the lovely view below him as he said.
" You say that now...We'll see. I'll probably drive you crazy."
He leaned back and reached over for the tube. Squirting some on his fingers, Alfarinn smiled apologetically at Thaddeus. "You realize I am absolutely horrible for getting things warm..."
He wrapped his arm around one of the Anantya's thighs, hugging it to him and slid his cool fingers slowly over Thaddeus's opening, allowing him to get used to the sensation before he slowly slid one finger inside his companion.
"I am rather glad you were optimistic,presumptuous and audacious. " Alfarinn said quietly as he moved his finger slowly in and out. Eventually adding a second one and continuing with equal care.
Alfarinn was touched by the assurance that he'd cause no harm but wondered if the blonde had ever done this before to know what potential pain he could cause if he were careless or impatient. Thaddeus was right though, he would not hurt him, at least not in this, because had no intention of taking any chances.
" You say that now...We'll see. I'll probably drive you crazy."
He leaned back and reached over for the tube. Squirting some on his fingers, Alfarinn smiled apologetically at Thaddeus. "You realize I am absolutely horrible for getting things warm..."
He wrapped his arm around one of the Anantya's thighs, hugging it to him and slid his cool fingers slowly over Thaddeus's opening, allowing him to get used to the sensation before he slowly slid one finger inside his companion.
"I am rather glad you were optimistic,presumptuous and audacious. " Alfarinn said quietly as he moved his finger slowly in and out. Eventually adding a second one and continuing with equal care.
Alfarinn was touched by the assurance that he'd cause no harm but wondered if the blonde had ever done this before to know what potential pain he could cause if he were careless or impatient. Thaddeus was right though, he would not hurt him, at least not in this, because had no intention of taking any chances.
Thaddeus Grey
18 years ago
I can only hope.
Thaddeus refrained from mentioning that Alfarinn could simply -look- at him and drive him crazy in the best possible way. Instead, he watched, almost curiously, as Alfarinn readied his fingers. He had time to feel an ache of appreciation that the other man would be so concerned for his comfort before the feel of cool slick fingers teasing him drove off all other thoughts. He shivered, but more in pleasure than in response to that cool feeling.
Alfarinn, Thaddeus observed, was as controlled and gentle as he always seemed to be when it came to his treatment of him, moving with aching, teasing slowness. The cool touch of his hand was both calming and arousing in pleasurable contrast to his own burning skin. When he felt one finger slide carefully inside him he let his head fall back into the pillows, his throat exposed, hands reaching out to stroke whatever skin they could. His hips he kept still only by force of will as Alfarinn moved in him at his chosen pace, speaking softly to him, telling him he was glad. He sighed in response, pleased that Alfarinn wanted this as much as he, and by the time the other man slid a second finger inside of him his legs were shaking from the effort of keeping still.
Somehow Thaddeus knew that these long slow movements could more enjoyable than his baser instincts understood, though it was becoming more and more difficult to keep from pushing back against that pleasurably teasing touch. He bit down on his lip, gasping, struggling now to find his patience, but at last it failed him and he gave one last whimper before lifting his head off the pillows and nearly crashing his mouth against Alfarinn's, letting his hips rise up to meet the other man's fingers.
Thaddeus refrained from mentioning that Alfarinn could simply -look- at him and drive him crazy in the best possible way. Instead, he watched, almost curiously, as Alfarinn readied his fingers. He had time to feel an ache of appreciation that the other man would be so concerned for his comfort before the feel of cool slick fingers teasing him drove off all other thoughts. He shivered, but more in pleasure than in response to that cool feeling.
Alfarinn, Thaddeus observed, was as controlled and gentle as he always seemed to be when it came to his treatment of him, moving with aching, teasing slowness. The cool touch of his hand was both calming and arousing in pleasurable contrast to his own burning skin. When he felt one finger slide carefully inside him he let his head fall back into the pillows, his throat exposed, hands reaching out to stroke whatever skin they could. His hips he kept still only by force of will as Alfarinn moved in him at his chosen pace, speaking softly to him, telling him he was glad. He sighed in response, pleased that Alfarinn wanted this as much as he, and by the time the other man slid a second finger inside of him his legs were shaking from the effort of keeping still.
Somehow Thaddeus knew that these long slow movements could more enjoyable than his baser instincts understood, though it was becoming more and more difficult to keep from pushing back against that pleasurably teasing touch. He bit down on his lip, gasping, struggling now to find his patience, but at last it failed him and he gave one last whimper before lifting his head off the pillows and nearly crashing his mouth against Alfarinn's, letting his hips rise up to meet the other man's fingers.
Alfarinn
18 years ago
Alfarinn only had time to register some surprise at Thaddeus's readiness before the blonde took hold of him and kissed him fiercely. It would seem he'd misjudged his companion after all. He assumed that Thaddeus's recent reticence was partly due to inexperience. There was Emma, and it seemed to imply a preference in his mind, that is the way of most people, to choose one gender over the other. A deep part of him feared that this was something untried by Thaddeus and he might find that he did not like it at all. It is not unheard for a straight man to experiment once and a while, though many who do would never admit to such a thing. Alfarinn couldn't bear the thought of Thaddeus deciding that while he cared about him this type of relationship wasn't for him. Perhaps it was a stupid fear and that was certainly how it would appear at this moment.
He let go of Thaddeus's leg and wrapped an arm around his back, holding him close enough for him to continue to kiss thoroughly, relief and desire mixing to make each one more demanding, more filled with need than they had been before. Eventually, he slid down to his companion's neck,giving it the same ravishing attention, while his fingers worked at a quicker more forceful pace.
And then suddenly he was still, holding Thaddeus close, he whispered hoarsely next to his ear.
"Do you want me? Do you still want me to take you?"
He let go of Thaddeus's leg and wrapped an arm around his back, holding him close enough for him to continue to kiss thoroughly, relief and desire mixing to make each one more demanding, more filled with need than they had been before. Eventually, he slid down to his companion's neck,giving it the same ravishing attention, while his fingers worked at a quicker more forceful pace.
And then suddenly he was still, holding Thaddeus close, he whispered hoarsely next to his ear.
"Do you want me? Do you still want me to take you?"
Thaddeus Grey
18 years ago
The outside world seemed to slip away, gradually blurring out of focus. He was only dimly aware of anything other than Alfarinn's mouth over his, kissing as though unleashed, of kissing back with equal fervor, of arching and pushing into those fingers with no restraint now, of Alfarinn's weight on top of him. When the other man slid down to his neck, Thaddeus tilted back, exposing as much skin as possible, shuddering with both contentment and anticipation.
And then Alfarinn stopped, went still, and his senses seemed to slam back into him, as though someone had flipped a switch and the world suddenly burst into impossible color and light. He could feel the blankets underneath him and Alfarinn's infinitely softer skin above him and aching need ripping through him. Soft blond hair tickled his shoulders. Alfarinn's voice, gone rougher somehow with desire, made him shiver as he whispered in his ear. He whimpered softly and pulled closer, burying his cheek in the other man's neck, and spoke softly but quickly, the words nearly tripping over each other in their rush to escape, filled with urgency and desire and passion, if lacking in coherence.
Yes please take me Alfarinn please want you so much please...
There was a small part of Thaddeus that felt the need to point out that he was not practically begging, not almost begging, but enacting the very definition of unrestricted begging need.
Mostly, though, Thaddeus simply hoped he got his point across.
And then Alfarinn stopped, went still, and his senses seemed to slam back into him, as though someone had flipped a switch and the world suddenly burst into impossible color and light. He could feel the blankets underneath him and Alfarinn's infinitely softer skin above him and aching need ripping through him. Soft blond hair tickled his shoulders. Alfarinn's voice, gone rougher somehow with desire, made him shiver as he whispered in his ear. He whimpered softly and pulled closer, burying his cheek in the other man's neck, and spoke softly but quickly, the words nearly tripping over each other in their rush to escape, filled with urgency and desire and passion, if lacking in coherence.
Yes please take me Alfarinn please want you so much please...
There was a small part of Thaddeus that felt the need to point out that he was not practically begging, not almost begging, but enacting the very definition of unrestricted begging need.
Mostly, though, Thaddeus simply hoped he got his point across.
Alfarinn
18 years ago
Alfarinn moaned softly as those words, spoken so softly and yet so quickly awoke more desire in him than he thought it possible to feel. He kissed Thaddeus's neck once more before laying the blonde fully back on the covers and removing himself from that embrace long enough to reach for the tube again. He coated himself without taking his eyes off his companion, watching Thaddeus with amazement and hunger that brewed together to make a storm of his light grey eyes.
He leaned once more over his companion, hovering on the verge, willing himself not to completely succumb to impatience in his need, to have some restraint, to think of Thaddeus so willing underneath him. It was more difficult than he would have imagined, seeing the Anantya moving against him, hearing him call his name. Alfarinn closed his eyes a moment in an effort to find some strength to hold back for a few moments more, keeping his promise to Thaddeus that he would not hurt him, though the blonde assured him otherwise, Alfarinn knew he was very close to being beyond himself.
And so it was with a lot more calm than he felt that he slowly eased his way into Thaddeus, taking him slowly, carefully, one portion at a time.
Fully inside, he held onto his companion,clinging desperately, his forehead on Thaddeus's shoulder as he trembled with the effort of keeping himself in check long enough for his partner to adjust.
He leaned once more over his companion, hovering on the verge, willing himself not to completely succumb to impatience in his need, to have some restraint, to think of Thaddeus so willing underneath him. It was more difficult than he would have imagined, seeing the Anantya moving against him, hearing him call his name. Alfarinn closed his eyes a moment in an effort to find some strength to hold back for a few moments more, keeping his promise to Thaddeus that he would not hurt him, though the blonde assured him otherwise, Alfarinn knew he was very close to being beyond himself.
And so it was with a lot more calm than he felt that he slowly eased his way into Thaddeus, taking him slowly, carefully, one portion at a time.
Fully inside, he held onto his companion,clinging desperately, his forehead on Thaddeus's shoulder as he trembled with the effort of keeping himself in check long enough for his partner to adjust.